Alt Rock Lyrics
“It's an art to live with pain... Mix the light into gray.”
- Eddie Vedder -
My Nightmares
Close my eyes the nightmares begins,
close my eyes and see the daemons wings unfurl,
It's the price I pay for my heart's needs,
watch her laughing at me,
watching me bleed.
Anyway I try to escape,
Her face haunting me,
I pray for death's sweet embrace,
This torture killing me day by day,
Need to find a place of peace,
Trying not to fall back down on my knees.
Close my eyes and take me there,
I can't escape from my nightmares,
Dark greulich clouds above,
trapped in my nightmare,
trapped in eternal nightmares.
Anyway I look at it,
Trapped in her poisonous death grip,
Slithering on my belly,
And it keeps me coming back for more,
Staying only opens fresh wounds again,
Her poison creeping in infecting my skin.
I close my eyes so I can't see,
The ugliness she sees in me,
Horror'ish nightmares are my dreams,
Ghoulish gargoyles watching over me,
Can't find no place of peace,
Right down back on my knees.
Close my eyes and take me there,
I can't escape from my nightmares,
Dark greulich clouds above,
trapped in my nightmare,
yeah, trapped in eternal nightmares.
Kinky Little Things
If you walked in on her in black leather hand cuffs with chains, blind folded and ball gagged, what would you say?
villus leather whip and pink nipple clamps on display, you can tie her up and whip her, would you still love her anyway?
you can collar her up and take her out any day,
You can bind her up and switch her any way,
.
If she showed up at your door in black leather lace, flogger with silver studded tips, would you take her in?
If she stepped up to you and clawed her nails down your skin, cat mask attached to her face, would still take her by the chin?
I can tie her up and flog her any day,
I can blind fold her doing her any way.
You can collar her up and take her out any day,
I can tie her up and flog her any day,
You can kinkily restrain her any day,
I can be freaky with her any day.
If I dressed you in an onyx bondage straight jack, wrists bound behind you, would you like it that way?
If I chained you up with your legs spread wide, arms stretched out to your side, would it turn you on that way?
You can kinkily restrain her any day,
You can chain her up and put her on display.
If I brought out some toys a coal black leather slapper, with a satin feather tickler, Would you let me against your skin?
If I ran a steel pinwheel up and down your body, prick your awareness, can you feel the gentle spin?
I can be freaky with her any day,
I can bend her over paddling her any way.
You can collar her up and take her out any day,
I can tie her up and flog her any day,
You can kinkily restrain her any day,
I can be freaky with her any day.
I can bind her up and switch her any way,
You can blind fold her doing her any way.
I can chain her up and put her on display.
You can bend her over paddling her any way.
Show me that you love me,
Yeah show me that you love me,
Show me that you love me,
Yeah that you love me.
Satan's Son
Standing slouching under
Cold blackened skies,
No longer loved,
Oh hear my cries!
Drenched in my sorrow's
Drowning in my pain,
I'm your forgotten son,
an abomination.
No one knows my name, no one knows who I am,
I'm the demon's spawn, I'm Satan's son.
Whispered in Judas's ear, a message loud and clear,
Yeah I'm the only one, I'm Satan's son.
Locked in this struggle,
With deaths bitter embrace,
My tormented soul,
The evil within must be released.
I control the Grim Reaper,
Leashed upon a chain,
I'll take your life,
I'll rob you of peace.
No one knows my name, no one knows who I am,
I'm a demon's spawn, I'm Satan's son.
Whispered in Cain's ear, a message loud and clear,
Yeah I'm the only one, I'm Satan's son.
Lucifer's Bride
She'd rather die than let him break her heart,
Laid out across her alter a gift to her Dark Lord,
Ill will, ill will, ill will so he had to depart,
Till death do us apart!
She slit his throat!
In the forest under the pale glow of the moon,
Now his lifeless body out on display,
She did, she did, she did forcefully kill him.
Ripped out his heart!
Across her alter of art!
She'd taken her last breathe,
She's crossed over the veil of death,
She's become Lucifer's bride,
Standing proudly by his side.
Her ghost white beauty she's Lucifer's bride!
Now she not going to cry over him anymore,
Released his frail power and she now hate his guts,
You do, you do, you do release his weak hold on you,
Stomp across his heart!
Love tore you apart!
Run to the Prince of Darkness tempting embrace,
His alluring touch is filled with lust,
You do, you do, you do with all the ardor,
Avidity tore her apart!
Eagerly waiting to depart!
She'd taken her last breathe,
She's crossed over the veil of death,
She's become Lucifer's bride,
Standing proudly by his side.
Her ghost white beauty she's Lucifer's bride!
Well you'd rather cut yourself, it's no mistake,
And the blowsy blood dripping to the canvas,
They have no clue, you do, you do as your blood pools,
Yeah watch it violently squirt!
Across the bedroom floor like art!
With your lifeless body out on display,
And no friends or family came,
No cares, no cares, no one cared for you,
Her life was torn apart!
No more broken hearts!
She'd taken her last breathe,
She's crossed over the veil of death,
She's become Lucifer's bride,
Standing proudly by his side.
Her ghost white beauty she's Lucifer's bride!
Sweet Embracing Mistress
Torn from my chest, held in her hands,
my heart still beating, watch it slowly bleeding.
I see the devil, a demon straight from hell,
she's got me begging, down on my knees pleading.
Destroying angel, I'll swallow my pride for one more ride.
Cursed by her spell, bound by her hex,
Her wand's evilly weaving, unable to find any freedom.
Apocalypse at hand, the veil now distorted,
I see the four horsemen, on steeds the end proclaiming.
Sweet sorceress, I'll use your knife to end my life.
My sweet embracing mistress, give me the breathe of life,
Sweet embracing mistress, show me the gifts of the night,
Sweet embracing mistress, before you I'll give up my rights,
My sweet embracing mistress, I'll lay down my life.
Pulled from my grave, raised from the dead,
I start silently screaming, under the full moonlight's beam.
Rotten and decayed, putrid peeling flesh.
I slowly start feeling, my body quickly healing.
Dear enchantress, I'll dedicate my soul for one more round.
My sweet embracing mistress, give me the breathe of life,
Sweet embracing mistress, show me the gifts of the night,
Sweet embracing mistress, before you I'll give up my rights,
My sweet embracing mistress, I'll lay down my life.
Insanity
A thirst runs deep inside of me,
A hunger that can't be sustained,
Appearing sinister.
As I prepare your brain,
Although I tried to hide,
My anticipation's plain to see,
My meal to be.
My insaaaanity, locked inside my insanity!
That's why they locked me up for being deranged,
My insaaaanity! ooooh my insanity.
My insaaaanity, locked inside my insanity!
That's why they locked me up for being displaced,
My insaaaanity! ooooh my insanity.
As I sliced the heart,
A chill ran up my spine,
Foreboding misfortune.
As I sat my plates,
Waiting for guests to arrive,
Flashing of lights came dragging me away,
They crashed in on me.
As I ripped out her face,
Blood flowed into my mouth,
Metallic taste of sanguine.
In a strapped straight jacket,
Keeping them safely from me,
Dragged into the silence of a cage.
They threw away my key.
My insaaaanity, locked inside my insanity!
That's why they locked me up for being deranged,
My insaaaanity! ooooh my insanity.
My insaaaanity, locked inside my insanity!
That's why they locked me up for being displaced,
My insaaaanity! ooooh my insanity.
Locked inside a cell,
Daylight to never see,
The psychiatrist drawing near.
Digging through my psychotic mind,
He can't understand what he finds,
Drowning him with my demons deep inside.
Until he dies lost in my insanity.
My insaaaanity, lost in my insanity!
My insaaaanity, my insaaaanity,
Lost inside my insanity!
Anna
Waking from my nightmare, a crisp chill in the air,
Cold sweat dripping appears,
I must face my fears.
My sanity has be cracked,
Remembering what I did,
My body I can swear,
Trembling from this nightmare.
Blindfolded in the night, securely bound and gagged,
Kinky fun with silver knives,
Trusted me with our lives.
The scene must be accurate,
Whips and chains beside our bed,
Hand cuffs and clamps,
Just like you told me you liked it!
Tied her up to our bed, in black silk lace adorn,
Blood flowing everywhere,
If she won't be my bride.
I must take her life,
It's exactly what I did,
I'm fluttering from the excitement,
As you drain to snow white!
Oh Anna, oh Anna
You brought me here,
Oh Anna, oh Anna,
I can no longer hear,
Oh Anna, oh Anna
Can you see me in here?
Oh Anna? oh Anna!
I don't want to face my fears,
Anna, oh Anna!
Sliced her with my knife, her slender body I prepared,
Aroma's strong in the air,
I primed my sacrifice.
Thought I'd get away with it,
Didn't anticipate being caught,
I hysterically quiver as they lead me,
Tight in this straight jacket!
Locked up in this place, calling me mentally degranged,
Under the doctors stare,
My demons I share,
The descriptions so accurate,
They can't understand what I did,
They strap me in a chair,
Their faces so full of fear!
Lead me down a hall, towards a dimly lit light,
Now under their care,
They shocked me there,
lightning forking midnight skies,
Thunder cracked in the air,
Lost within the cries,
Forever in this asylum!
Oh Anna, oh Anna
You brought me here,
Oh Anna, oh Anna,
I can no longer hear,
Oh Anna, oh Anna
Can you see me in here?
Oh Anna? oh Anna!
I don't want to face my fears,
Anna, oh Anna!
The Queer of Horror!
Yes "the Queer of Horror is a real fucking thing!"
Face painted porcelain white, eye's framed with sapphire blue,
Ooooh, ooooh, oooh,
Eye brows drawn on with care,
Black mascara to scare.
She dirtily say's "as long as your my bottom bitch",
She'll have you ass up in the air as you're bent over,
Ooooh, ooooh, oooh,
Coal black cuffs soon appear,
Ebony ropes laying near.
Belles of the ball, oh beautiful Queens,
Watch them with such elegance and grace,
But when she waltzes in, her best bitch look on her face,
Enters the Queer of Horror, here to take here place,
She's such a catty bitch on this scene.
She say's she collects head, so take it as you will,
Down on her knees, seductively undoing his pants,
Ooooh, ooooh, oooh,
Merlot red lip stick a smear,
Clutching her by the hair.
Yes "the Queer of Horror is a real fucking thing!"
Carefully painted on pitch black moles, with matching nose rings.
Ooooh, ooooh, oooh,
Swaying her powder white wig,
Not giving any fucks.
Belles of the ball, oh beautiful Queens,
Watch them with such elegance and grace,
But when she waltzes in, her best bitch look on her face,
Enters the Queer of Horror, here to take here place,
She's such a catty bitch on this scene.
Lester
He appears to be an ordinary guy,
Ironed white dress shirt and tie,
Freshly starch pressed clothes,
Yet no one knows.
Lester appears with a grandfatherly face,
Someone easily misplaced,
If they only knew.
As he effortlessly slips off his clothes,
Tattooed chained bra exposed,
Slut written upon his blotchy skin,
Only he knows.
Pink lacquer painted finger nails,
Adorned in golden chains,
Lester looks in the mirror.
When he’s all alone in his bedroom,
And there’s no one to intrude,
Lester pulls out a leather brown casket,
Dark Cabaret music blasts.
Pulls out his fuscia vanity bag,
Enjoys dressing up in drag,
No illusions of himself to show,
Yet no one knows.
Applying lavender eyeliner on his face,
Rose lipstick stains his lips,
Studded ring pierced nipple tips,
Oh no one knows.
As the door bell starts to ring,
She's feeling like a beauty Queen,
Gliding down the spiraled stairs,
Only she knows.
With a smile on her aging face,
She's full of radiant grace,
Her anticipation starts to grow.
When he’s all alone in his bedroom,
And there’s no one to intrude,
Lester pulls out a leather brown casket,
Dark Cabaret music blasts.
They think he's another ordinary guy,
But if they only knew they would die,
About his fetishes and kinky side,
Yet no one knows.
As she invites her guest into her place,
All her toys laid out on display,
Fixation what she grotesque desires.
Oh no one knows.
She takes him down to her dank basement,
Assuring him that it's a secured location
she'll show to him and pick out his selection,
Only they will know.
predilection of their anticipation,
hidden perceptions hides his reputation.
Lester's heart is racing.
When he’s all alone in his bedroom,
And there’s no one to intrude,
Lester pulls out a leather brown casket,
Dark Cabaret music blasts.
Watch Lester dance in the confines,
Of his sanctuary as he slowly declines,
Someday he'll be making the news headlines,
Yet no one will ever know,
They never did read between the lines,
Lester never indicated any signs,
Of the life he never wanted to expose.
When he’s all alone in his bedroom,
And there’s no one to intrude,
Lester pulls out a leather brown casket,
Dark Cabaret music blasts.
Roller coaster inside My Head
Opening up, don’t know if I want to,
Keep myself, protected from hurt and pain, ohh yeah
She has me owned, head over heels,
Completely freaked, about the way I feel.
But I will submit to her feet, yeah there’s nothing if you can’t be complete,
And I try, to ignore the voices persisting in my head, oh yeah.
And I try not to give in to freely, but she’s in my head, ooh ooh,
I don’t have a choice, something inside has to give, oh yeah!
Shock me now, give me something to know I’m awake,
Lay me down, my legs are too weak to stand, yeah
Heart bleed aches, at least you know you live,
Driving stakes, mentally struggling in my head, ohh ooh ohh.
And I will, submit to her feet, yeah there’s nothing if she can’t make you complete,
And I try, to ignore the voices persisting in my head, oh yeah.
And I try not to give in to freely, but she’s in my head, oh no, in my head,
I don’t have a choice, something inside had to give, oh yeah!
And I don’t know where this will lead, I’ll find out in the end.
Shaking beneath, fragile hands,
He doesn’t know where to stand,
Trembling teeth, she makes him weak,
He thinks, she doesn’t have a clue,
He doesn’t have a clue, he doesn’t have a … He doesn’t have a …..!
And I will submit, yeah to her feet, there’s nothing if you can’t make her complete,
And I try, to ignore the voices persisting in my head, oh yeah.
And I try not to give in to freely again, I hope I’m in her head,
I don’t have a choice, something inside had to give, oh yeah!
And I don’t know where this will lead, I don’t know where this will end.
And I will, submit to her feet, yeah there’s nothing if she can’t make you complete,
And I try, to ignore the voices persisting in my head, oh yeah.
And I try not to give in to freely, but she’s in my head, oh no, in my head,
I don’t have a choice, something inside had to give, oh yeah!
And I don’t know where this will lead, we’ll find out in the end.
Blood Lust Pumping
Hey listen up,
It’s time this guy needs to step it up,
Something I gotta say,
So you need to listen on up.
You got my lust turned on,
Blood pumping this is no con,
Tell me your price and I’ll pay,
To ride these feeling all the way,
oooh, oooh
I need you to know,
I want to run my hands now,
Up and down you, all around you now,
With no intent to go.
I just want you to know,
Girl you drive me wild head to toe,
oooh, oooh
Let go, everyone needs that person to care for them,
the more I try the more I know,
the more I want things to flow.
Be my under lover cover,
let me know where to go,
And I’ll be there I hope you know,
oooh, ooooh, ohhh
oooh, ooooh, ohhh
oooh, ooooh, ohhh
Make love to me, sex it up
Baby you easily get me up
yeah you really need to know.
You're really getting me now,
Anything vanilla is disallowed
Show me that kinky sideshow
oooh, oooh
Baby got me down on my knees,
Now she's show me what I need,
Keep giving me some of that good old lovin'.
Let's turn the radio up, yeah baby let's crank it up,
Just a heads up, baby let's never break this up.
oooh, oooh
Let go, everyone needs that person to care for them,
the more I try the more I know,
the more I want things to flow.
Be my under lover cover,
let me know where to go,
And I’ll be there I hope you know,
oooh, ooooh, ohhh
oooh, ooooh, ohhh
oooh, ooooh, ohhh
There Are No Rules
I can give you my love and share my desires,
But I'll never give you my feelings or fears.
I tried to give them once and was a fool,
In Love we must trust and make some rules.
There was a reason I was never willing to give anyone my all.
Now I know it's because when I fall, I always fall alone.
I'm not going to let you have the whole me,
I'll fight my inner daemons, like I always have alone.
I thought I could finally share because I cared,
But a fool, the one I've always been,
No one can I trust with my emotions within.
I'll let us run the course of time,
But it will never be the dame with us,
Because a part of me inside has died.
I wanted to be able to tell you all
But here I stand not willing to trust you with my soul.
I wanted to give you the whole me, It was foolish thinking,
In Love there are no rules.
I'll Give
I'll give you the space
I'll let you breath
I'll be here when you're ready
But I cannot promise you I'll bleed for you.
I want you to run to me
When you try and run the other way.
I want everything with you
But you only push me away
I never wanted you to feel this way over me.
I'll give you all that you need
But baby I can't give you all of me.
I'll hold you up when you are weak
But I'll never let you see me on my knees.
I'll hold you in my arms,
And try to make you feel safe
But I can't show you my belly
When I am not in a safe place.
I'll give you the space
I'll let you breath
I may not be here when you're ready
But I can promise you I'll bleed.
You asked me to be open
Now I am down in this black hole
My feelings I can no longer expose
These walls I build for self control.
Poisoned Tears
What's this inside of me?
Tell me when did I agree
to become a host for something
attacking my temple, my body.
Chastened by my lack of breath
trembling like a nervous wreck,
this feeling is not who I am,
bombarding my simple abilities,
trapped, I really cannot see.
Reflections of life flying past,
anticipate that my memory lasts,
that I won't simply disappear
collecting my thought, all my fears,
while wiping away poisoned tears,
Somberly fighting against
the trembling of my lip,
as I listen to the slow
tranquil, cisplatin drip...
falling are poisoned tears
as I float on out of here,
so low at holding on,
not always feeling so strong,
yet I'm not ready to glide,
help me, find a place to hide,
my will to stay is being denied
Clouded Skies of Slate
Reach your arms out
and hold me down,
don't let me ascend,
pull me back, to the ground,
clouded skies of slate
please pass me by, deny my fate,
radiation leading to the decayed.
Hear my pleading call,
wipe away the tears,
that fall into a pool
enveloping me as I drown,
lost within my screams,
I really don't want to leave.
Hooked to tubes that feed
repulsive toxins, being freed,
assaulting this disease
destroying my now fragile body,
nausea followed by nose bleeds,
looming, overwhelming adversity,
clouded skies of slate
hanging over, attending me.
Don't let my children see
the fear intensifying inside of me,
build up my crumbling strength,
I beg that some part of me remains,
rather than clouded skies of slate,
broken will, I feel so drained
under the clouded skies of slate.
Dead to Nursery Rhymes
Sticks and stones
may break my bones,
but you'll never
see me quiver,
when I wither.
Into the forest,
Red Ridinghood
sing your chorus,
the "Bad Wolf", allured,
becomes your victim secured.
Goosey, goosey, gander,
tied me to an anchor,
thrown down your stairs,
someone hear my prayers,
to survive the refiner's fire.
Old Mother Hubbard
throw me your bone,
no more of the unknown,
look at what we have sown,
dark and deary tones.
At the Mulberry bush
we'll go round and round,
hand in hand we're bound,
inflicting unsealing wounds,
we never belonged together.